Paper flowers.

http://eliseblaha.typepad.com/golden/2010/03/how-to-tuesday-simple-paper-flowers.html

Painted pine cones.

http://stephaniecongdonbarnes.blogspot.com/2009/10/i-know-its-early.html

Cartilage pierce.

I got my cartilage pierced on Friday.

Hannah Maka and I went and got them together.

LOVE LOVE LOVE it.

Uselessness

I was at Chloe's Coffee spending time with my friend Sarah, who was working there. While she was doing dishes and serving customers, I had some random thoughts that I developed by sending myself a super long email from my Blackberry. Here's what I typed up with my thumbs...

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I think I am useless because I have less time, less energy, and am not the person I was.

TIME
God has given me all the time I need to do His will. I just need to steward. Am I stewarding well? I think one of my "I have no time because I'm always sleeping" causes is useless pursuits. I have less time, yes. So its all the more precious. Am I using it to pursue Christ, or wasting it? Lord, teach me to number my hours that I may use them wisely, for the only thing that remains.

LESS ENERGY
God provides strength for everything He calls me to. But a big issue is seperating sickness from laziness. I think it could really help me to get myself in a more managable pattern so I can discern the sickness excuse. For example, go to bed soon enough that I don't need to snooze. And then get in a pattern of not using the snooze button. Making a manegable task list, and then be faithful to follow through. Be aware of limitations, but don't focus too much on feelings.

MIND/PERSONALITY
I feel like I'm not myself. New energy, or lack thereof. No goals - little and tired ones. New concentration - a poor one. I forget things, space out, don't care about things that used to excite me. I am the person God wants me to be to do His purpose now. If I'm less dominant and energetic then Gods work for me now must require something else.

If I'm this way for the rest of my days, I'm not useless. I'm used differently.

Unless the Lord builds the house, the workers labor in vain.

Its Gods plan that's unstoppable and best. Not mine.

(the following are snippets from different sovereign grace songs.)

Come Holy Spirit
We lay down our lives
To gather in the harvest
Won by Jesus Christ.

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Your glorious cause oh God
Engages our hearts
May Jesus Christ be known
WHEREVER we are

We ask not for ourselves
But for your renown
Your cross has saved us
SO we pray
Your kingdom come

paper boquet

http://www.projectwedding.com/wedding-ideas/diy-wedding-challenge-2010-paper-flower-bouquets

I want a tattoo there.

oh deer
Originally uploaded by sadie w. harris

I want a tattoo in this spot. love love love. Maybe not a deer antler, but a flower, or a butterfly or a small heart..

Your great Burden Bearer

Saw this on Megan Russel's blog.

“it is a heavy burden, roll it on Omnipotence.
it is your burden now, and it crushes you;
but when the Lord takes it He will make nothing of it.
if you are still called to bear it,
‘He will sustain you.’
it will be on you, and not on you."

--
Charles Spurgeon
Check Book of the Bank of Faith, July 14th.

Elizabeth Prentiss Quote

God never places us in any position in which we can not grow. We may fancy that he does. We may fear we are so impeded by fretting, petty cares that we are gaining nothing; but when we are not sending any branches upward, we may be sending roots downward.

gluten.

I might have figured out the cause behind my "lyme headaches." These are very different from the typical tension headaches I've had all my life. These are a fuzz in the front of my head and are accompanied by feelings of nausea. I got them especially every time I ate. Thought it was because of the lyme. I hope I'm wrong, but I think they are triggered by eating gluten.

Today I had a burger, and 5 min later had a headache.

Later I had an ice cream. With a cone. Headache!

#1 reason i'm un-cool with this

i don't want to be "that girl" who is too frail to eat bread.

sorry gluten intolerant ppl, i don't mean this harshly.

i just always thought it'd be lame of me to be gluten intolerant. ironic.

#2 reason i'm un-cool with this

beer

comforting thoughts

1. i can still eat ice cream

2. i can still eat fro-yo

3. i can still have sushi

::UPDATE::
In September 2010, I figured out that I was also casein-intolerant. So much for being able to have fro-yo and ice cream. :p :)

10 things Re: Fall Semester that I am excited about.

(something to try to get my to be okay with the idea of going back to school. right now working through depression, this is a big scary idea.) ;-)

1. Being with the roomies.

2. The new houseplants Joanna and I purchased in New Jersey.

3. The food co-op at Maryland.

4. Being 5 minutes away from Yogiberry and bubble tea (!!).

5. Routine.

6. College friends.

7. Having all my own food again.

8. The gym at school.

9. TBD

10. TBD :-)

Resolutions.

1. I resolve to quit EWB and never return.

2. I resolve to keep my room clean.

3. I resolve to keep my basil plant alive.

4. I resolve to have study parties with Gloria.

5. I resolve to have more study time in Joanna's piano practice rooms while she plays.

6. I resolve to drink lots of bubble tea.

7. I resolve to drop a class if I don't laugh for a month like Spring'10. :P