watch stuff grow.

I recently spent a half hour finding this article online. It's a favorite of mine - I read it back when I wasn't doing so well in the Fall with being sick, struggling with the depression and change of it all, and just an overall sense of failure that came with my new limits. http://articles.latimes.com/2010/sep/21/opinion/la-oe-weaver-pumpkins-20100921

xoxo
Hope you are well.

the miracle of tryptophan

Two things that I never thought I would find extraordinary:
- I have only cried once a week the last two weeks
- Each time, the trigger and feeling happy again afterwards, all happened within 5 minutes.

Rewind to all of the Fall semester when it was great to only cry five days out of seven, and when an attack would mean 2.5 hours intense tears. (Due to my Lyme and remnants from the medications I took in the Summer).

I learned so much during that time, but am still so happy to be through it, and back to normal. The ability to be upset, and then think about something else, and be okay - it's a chemical miracle to me now.

God is my future.

Today, during worship at church, Josh Harris came up on stage and prayed/said some things that really struck me in new ways.

One of the comments was something along the lines of "Lord, you are my future."

In one of my favorite John Mayer songs, it says "So scared of getting older, only good being young."

I tend to have this train of thought most of the time - scared and small looking at the future and the world I'll walk through it in.

While it isn't wrong to be miss childhood and realize that adulthood involves a lot, I think changing this perspective can helping me glorify God more, worry less, have more joy. etc.

IF THE LORD IS MY FUTURE

- I have a good and joy filled future.

- I don't have to worry about my job. It isn't my future. God is.

- I don't have to worry about who I will marry, if I will marry, if he will freaking die on me. God is my future, not my husband.

- My financial situation isn't my future.

- My grades aren't my future.

- Wasting time by making a decision or changing my mind isn't my future.

All these things are in my future.

God will work through these decisions and events to glorify Him.

But these things are not the core, the theme, the hope of my future.

God is my future and I couldn't be happier.

a few of my favorite things.

It's 12:30pm and, although I should hit the hay, I want to say a few things so that I will remember them later.

1. I might as well live life to the fullest -
enjoying each situation and season rather than worrying about or living only for the next one.

2. Pink lemonade rocks.

3. I don't want to freak out over dumb things.