I seem to have had it since late March, and they're putting me on doxycycline...
number one
no plan, formula, or list can fix me.
my biggest goal and my only hope is in God.
before all things, and in all things, my goal is to glorify Him.
and only through His strength can I do this.
and He will provide strength.
and when I fail, when I fall
He will arrange for it to glorify Him.
He’s sovereign like that.
number two
if my goal is God’s glory, I am happy to do it His way.
this means that there are no setbacks, delays, or obstacles. just situations that He has ordained. yes, I didn’t plan it this way. no, it doesn’t make sense to me. this is okay because I know He know’s whats up, and will work it for good. it may, to me, looks like a windy wrong-direction road, going backwards, or painful and useless. but its not a diverstion from the plan, it was planned. it’s not useless, it’s perfect. perfect.
number three
this is not the worst thing that could happen to me.
mostly because it’s the best thing that could happen to me.
basically because God’s in charge.
“How will he then not graciously give us all things?”
number four
i will look back with no regrets.
i will look back with joy and faith
He never fails.
number five
brief pause to recall that not only can i not despair because of these truths, but i also don’t deserve any of this. i sprurned God, i sinned, i deserve eternal death and punishment. “But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us..”
number six
i will try to be others focused.
i know this is annoying, but let’s face it. life is about God, not me.
so i want to glorify Him.
i want to love otheres.
I want to put God first, others second, me third.
this means making effort and using energy to reach out, hear about their life, care for them, worry about their problems, encourage them.
number seven
the only way to be others focused is to keep working to be God focused.
otherwise it’s me,me,me.
number eight
i vow to get rid of my yellow tongue.
it’s so strange.
