etc

in hope & in courage

they sometimes say that love always wins

i know that love has already won.

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current obsessions:

stars

courage

tattoos

pain throws your heart to the ground

love turns the whole thing around

Edward's Resolutions

My favorites of Edward's Resolutions

6. Resolved, to live with all my might, while I do live.

7. Resolved, never to do anything, which I should be afraid to do, if it were the last hour of my life.

17. Resolved, that I will live so as I shall wish I had done when I come to die.

22. Resolved, to endeavor to obtain for myself as much happiness, in the other world, as I possibly can, with all the power; might, vigor, and vehemence, yea violence, I am capable of, or can bring myself to exert, in any way that can be thought of.

25. Resolved, to examine carefully, and constantly, what that one thing in me is, which causes me in the least to doubt of the love of God; and to direct all my forces against it.

sit back, watch things grow

"ive been at this for a long time

life after life

day after day

heartache after heartache

sunrise after sunrise

year after year

you are no exception to this rule

this rule of my perfection

you will not be the one i let down

the one who i am unfaithful to

the one who i do not abundantly love

you plant you sow

and everything around you

you think it all is dying

but you can't see what i am building

what i have planted

what i am growing

go now,

do today

do this hour, and do this week

be blind to what i am doing

but be utterly sure that i am doing

and be utterly sure that it will be spectacular

and be utterly happy in me and my love for you

dance in the minefields

i hold all things in my hands."

ROUND-UP: Tattoo Ideas & Phrases

foot:

enjoy it

faithful

this is God, this is God

sit back, watch things grow

wrist:

all His ways are steadfast love & mercy (in 2 lines)

behind right ear:

shooting star

“For the gospel is the one great permanent circumstance in which I live and move….” – Milton Vincent

This kind of stuff shatters fears.

Listening to Christmas music while I'm doing my statistics homework. Pondering November and December, and the happiness that could be. Imaging sitting in the business school full of Christmas trees prepping for finals. Thinking about the potential for joy and love.

Then my thoughts glide over to fears. What if it's not a good month. What if there's drama and pain.

God is love. The love I have in and through God is huge. He isn't just enough to fill the void caused by pain, He is the source of all love and therefore there is room for mirth and overflowing whenever He is around. And He will be around this Christmas.

This kind of stuff shatters fears.

fall wedding flowers - bark wrapping

Via: The Ritzy Bee Blog

PROJECTS - TO DO: apron tutorial

http://thecraftsdept.marthastewart.com/2010/06/apron-tutorial.html

cute baking / cupcake cups

http://www.bakeitpretty.com/item_1425/Dashing-Dot-Baking-Cups.htm

strong emotions, extreme confidence

http://www.ccef.org/strong-emotions-extreme-confidence

Desperate Times: College Edition

The desperate measures that I have been reduced to during my college years.

1. Stealing toilet paper from campus because we have none at our house.

2. Trading brownies to the neighbor boys for toilet paper.

3. Ordering underwear online so that I will have to do my laundry less frequently and will avoid having to take the time to go shopping .

4. Sleeping on the couch in the common room instead of my bedroom in hopes that it will make it easier to get up the next morning.

things to look at

http://ritzybee.typepad.com/my_weblog/2010/10/an-apple-a-day.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+typepad%2FZlhs+%28%7Britzy+bee+blog%7D%29&utm_content=Google+Reader

http://www.danamcclure.com/2010/02/color-in-a-small-place/

http://www.danamcclure.com/2010/09/calypso-home/

Eighteen things. [updated]

I turned 18 a couple of weeks ago and one of the things I decided to do was create a list of eighteen things I want to do before I turn 19 (and then I'll do nineteen things, etc. etc.)

Here's what I have so far (not quite finished yet).

18 THINGS AT 18

1. Grow potted flowers and/or herbs. (CHECK AND CHECK!)

2. Join the fire dept.

3. Read 10 non-school books. (See progress here.)

4. Re-learn to knit.

5. Mail someone a care package.

6. Send 5 people cards/postcards.

- erin

7. Recover my journal. (CHECK!)

8. Try 5 new places to eat.

- Yogiberry

- Yoyogi Sushi

- Chloe's Coffee

- that burger place in vt (photos on phone)

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9. Memorize 3 chapters of the Bible.

10. Buy a casual dress.

11. Go to the beach. (CHECK!)

12. Try 10 new recipes.

- gf df pumpkin bread

- gf df cinnamon rolls or this recipe

- gf df walnut bread

- wild rice / yogurt spinach salad

- homemade (and thus dairy free) nutella

13. Buy a poster or painting. (CHECK! - Robb Painting, Elise Blaha poster)

14. Re-design my new bedroom.

15. 30 push-ups.

16. Buy curtains for Stanford house. (CHECK!)

17. Learn to write and run apple scripts.

.: oct third twenty-ten

Reviewed this list. Excited about seeing actual progress. Was feeling bogged down with everything..this is good and uplifting. Need to keep working on photos and tracking it all in a format for my "18 things booklet." Worst case scenario, I don't document 18 in a book and use the book for 19. But I'd like to do it. I can worry about that next semester. Right now, just happy that I'm making good progress.

.: jan fifteenth

When I made my 18th-Year-Goals, I had no idea what was in store. The goals contain remnants from my pre-lyme-self (push ups, fire dept), but also give room for things I didn't realize would be a huge deal (trying new recipes with my new gluten and dairy free diet). This list represents a year of much change and includes things that I had to give up, and things I had to grow into.

G.K. Chesteron - Exult in Monotony

G.K. Chesteron:

A child kicks his legs rhythmically through excess, not absence, of life.

Because children have abounding vitality, because they are in spirit fierce and free, therefore they want things repeated and unchanged. They always say, “Do it again”; and the grown-up person does it again until he is nearly dead. For grown-up people are not strong enough to exult in monotony.

But perhaps God is strong enough to exult in monotony.

It is possible that God says every morning, “Do it again” to the sun: and every evening, “Do it again” to the moon.

It may not be automatic necessity that makes all daisies alike; it may be that God makes every daisy separately, but has never got tired of making them.

It may be that He has the eternal appetite of infancy; for we have sinned and grown old, and our Father is younger than we.

The repetition in Nature may not be a mere recurrence; it may be a theatrical encore.

—”The Ethics of Elfland,” chapter 4 in Orthodoxy.

HT: Justin Taylor